okay. so i haven't slept or done laundry in two weeks..

i've been going to three different courses and work the nights i'm not throwing self-motivation into my face.. living an upset-free, full of possibility life.

and my gov't sponsored course (SEARCH) specialized in dealing with job searching for artists. Unfortunately.. and I guess this is mainly due to the fact that our government is being run a creepy blue-eyed Conservative, the funding towards the program has been cut. And hence, the program will no longer be available. However, I managed to get a spot in the last program -- and I had to go for two interviews 1) with a case manager who gave me gov't approval (and was also really peed that the programme has been cut) and 2) with one of the counselors for the programme itself.


ANYWAY, so yesterday was a really touching day. There are sixteen participants and we all presented, offered one another a taste of our talents. And I got really inspired. For the first time in nine months I played for an audience and I felt overjoyed. They really appreciated it (and I really appreciated what everyone else did..) .. and I'm so happy I did.

ANYWAY, i was out tonight with some lesbian friends and we ended up going to a calories-esque coffee shop on Davie St. (Vancouver's Gay village) .. and it ended up having a piano and so I got to play two songs for my Buds.. and then the staff asked if I was "booked for pride".. and i gave them my phone #..

i'm pretty excited about that, even if nothing comes up.. i'm so horrible at self-marketing. and thats what were talking about in our course.